16 week update

We have been trying to get in as much summer fun as possible. This past weekend we spent the day at Lake Belton with my family, but all the ladies forgot our cameras!!!! Can you believe that???? We had a great day swimming, tubing, and wake surfing. Got some sun....some more than others, and just had a really great time.

I am now 16wks pregnant.....

(Thanks Ashley for the stickies. I couldn't wait to use them.)

You can actually see "baby lockhart" now. That is what the adoring public calls the baby since we are having a difficult time deciding if we are going to find out the sex, and prefer not to tell anyone the names that we are discussing. I find it difficult to believe that the baby can now hear my voice and is the size of the palm of my hand. It just amazes me, and I know that I grin like a kid on Christmas morning when people tell me congrats, or find out that we are pregnant. I just can't help myself. Things continue to go well with no problems, and we are having more energy day to day to get back to the normal routines around here.

Fly a Kite

This past weekend we had a chance to go with Davy's family to Canyon Lake, and spend some time away. So most of this post will be pics.

"Let's go fly a kite"


Weekend wildlife


Swimming with Grammy


A new version of wake surfing


On the baby front. 15 weeks and counting. Pics next week of the 16 week baby belly. I had my first bout with morning sickness this morning. Caught me off guard. Up until now I have only been slightly nauseous, but today was not just nausea! Then I got to spend the whole day at the court house for Jury Duty. What fun that was, but such an interesting experience to go through. Seeing our justice system at work. One question really hit me. "Are any of you totally opposed, because of your religious convictions, to sitting in judgment of someone?". At that point I realized that I in fact wasn't prepared to decide someones fate if they were in fact guilty of the offense, and God gave me a little blessing where the jury wasn't going to be deciding the punishment only the guilt/innocent phase of the trial. A lot of the questions that were asked I decided to really ponder on and make a truth filled response, and I know that life is filled with a lot of grey but I tend to be a black and white person where I want to know both sides of the story. I always try to think of not only the positives, but the negatives as well so that the best decision can be made. In the end I didn't get selected for the trial, but I came away being convicted myself because one of the sins that I commit is to judge people. I have been aware of this for a while, but also can see that through my growing relationship with Christ I have become more aware of the situation and that keeps me from judging. I love that about this intimate relationship that we have...being able to open my eyes in a way that I hadn't seen before. John 9:15 "He put clay on my eyes, and I washed, and I see" I feel like before my walk with Christ intensified I had clay on my eyes, and it is being washed away. What I renewing feeling that is. Let yourself be renewed today with clean, refreshed, and new sight.

Newest Anthem

Today......so many things yet unable to describe them all. I don't know. Be prepared that this may be a ramblin blog. So emotional today, which thankfully hasn't been to much of the case during the past 14 weeks. You may ask my husband and he would say something different, but most days I am not brought to tears multiple times. Tears of frustration, anxiety, love, thankfulness, exhaustion.....yeah that about sums them up. So I got to reading, and came across my "newest anthem".

Ephesians 4:1-2 "...Live a life worthy of the calling you have received. Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love."

I have felt a tugging on my heart lately to use my talents for the greatness of God, and at times am bewildered on what that means. I am not sure that means that we are not all bound for some type of greatness, but that even the most insignificant life, is SO Significant in his eyes that your calling can be anything. I say insignificant because it is a feeling we get on this earth when things are bigger than us, when we feel out of control (which....just a reminder....we aren't in conrol :O))but also referencing Eph 3:8 "although I am less than the least of all God's people this grace was given me..." Paul even felt less than the least. Ponder on that a moment.
My job allows me to be able to "touch" people everyday, and in turn shows me that I can use the talents that he has given me to really touch these people. I just pray that everyday I am doing that, but I know that if I continue to try and keep this verse in mind, nothing is impossible.

On the baby front: I am getting more energy, and the dogs aren't sure that is a good thing. We ventured out on a walk this evening, and I wore them out....hanging tongues, gulping water, laying down....and that was just me.HHAHAAA. (I would post pictures of them....but they are camera shy and all- yeah whatever....couldn't get a shot that wasn't blurry)

"Safe in His Arms"

We had a check up yesterday and got to really hear the heart beat and see our little "lemon" (that is about the size of the baby right now). He/She looked to be waving at us, and just kicking those little legs. It was just so amazing, and really put me in awe of this whole miracle. I can't wait to go back and see our little baby again, because right now that is one thing that makes me feel like it is really real. I mean I know that I am pregnant....starving, exhausted, nausea (which is getting better), growing belly, hormones.....but sometimes it doesn't feel real.

I try to be an optimistic person, but I also know reality and try to prepare myself for the what if. I think that my life experiences with my heart and with our first pregnancy made me very aware of the "glass half empty" aspect of life. But yesterday after I got in the car I was so sweetly reminded through listening to "Safe" by Phil Wickham that no matter what, I am safe with God, and how couldn't I be when he gave his Son Jesus Christ for me. WOW! Getting past the 12 week mark for me was really exciting because we had decided this time around we would wait to tell most people until that point because the risk of miscarriage is less, and the pain of loosing our first baby was so great that we just wanted to savor it for ourselves without sharing it with alot of people. But each time I knew that God was with me, and that he is so faithful, so no matter the outcome we would continue on with Him at our side. What a comforting thought. *sigh* I could sit quietly with that thought all evening and be peaceful.

Other great things that are happening....I had a check up with my heart doctor in Austin, and everything is looking great. No signs of PVC's during my EKG or the medtronic download. So thanks be to God, and the amazing team that helped make all that happen June 1, 2009. And My doctor now comes to Bryan one time a month for out of town patient checkup, which is a blessing and a calming thought that I can see them more often if needed without making the drive to Austin.

Last but not least....To find out the sex of sweet baby Lockhart?????? I know there are thoughts both ways, but I am just so excited to be pregnant that all the other things that go along with it seem overwhelming at times. Like all the things that you need for a baby, getting a nursery ready, "when is your last day at work?", "are you going back to work after the baby?"....question after question that right now don't seem as important as being pregnant and enjoying it. I know at some point I will have to get my act together and do all this decision making, but right now we are still savoring the fact that we are pregnant, what an amazing miracle it is, and how safe we feel.