"Safe in His Arms"

We had a check up yesterday and got to really hear the heart beat and see our little "lemon" (that is about the size of the baby right now). He/She looked to be waving at us, and just kicking those little legs. It was just so amazing, and really put me in awe of this whole miracle. I can't wait to go back and see our little baby again, because right now that is one thing that makes me feel like it is really real. I mean I know that I am pregnant....starving, exhausted, nausea (which is getting better), growing belly, hormones.....but sometimes it doesn't feel real.

I try to be an optimistic person, but I also know reality and try to prepare myself for the what if. I think that my life experiences with my heart and with our first pregnancy made me very aware of the "glass half empty" aspect of life. But yesterday after I got in the car I was so sweetly reminded through listening to "Safe" by Phil Wickham that no matter what, I am safe with God, and how couldn't I be when he gave his Son Jesus Christ for me. WOW! Getting past the 12 week mark for me was really exciting because we had decided this time around we would wait to tell most people until that point because the risk of miscarriage is less, and the pain of loosing our first baby was so great that we just wanted to savor it for ourselves without sharing it with alot of people. But each time I knew that God was with me, and that he is so faithful, so no matter the outcome we would continue on with Him at our side. What a comforting thought. *sigh* I could sit quietly with that thought all evening and be peaceful.

Other great things that are happening....I had a check up with my heart doctor in Austin, and everything is looking great. No signs of PVC's during my EKG or the medtronic download. So thanks be to God, and the amazing team that helped make all that happen June 1, 2009. And My doctor now comes to Bryan one time a month for out of town patient checkup, which is a blessing and a calming thought that I can see them more often if needed without making the drive to Austin.

Last but not least....To find out the sex of sweet baby Lockhart?????? I know there are thoughts both ways, but I am just so excited to be pregnant that all the other things that go along with it seem overwhelming at times. Like all the things that you need for a baby, getting a nursery ready, "when is your last day at work?", "are you going back to work after the baby?"....question after question that right now don't seem as important as being pregnant and enjoying it. I know at some point I will have to get my act together and do all this decision making, but right now we are still savoring the fact that we are pregnant, what an amazing miracle it is, and how safe we feel.